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Rain, rain go away…
I can’t stand being stuck inside. UGH. But in a good note, Cassidy and I had fun today… make cookies, painted her nails, played dress up, played with the Barbi’s, she got to play with Brooklynn while I watched her for Chris for awhile. So, it wasn’t all bad. I’d have just liked it a little better if we had gotten some time to go to the park or something.
Woah, I don’t know what happened here but ignore this post
Thank you, move on.
:<
So, I’m not working at Elite anymore. Kynan was an awsome boss but things just didn’t work out. So, I have an interview tomorrw at 10am at a temp agency here in town that also has an office in San Jose. So I figured I’d get my foot in the door here and when I make the move this summer, I’ll already have contacts and somebody looking for me. They do temp, temp to hire, and look for full time positions.
I’ve been playng around a lot with php stuff lately. I’ve been bored at night and learning about all this is kinda fun. 🙂 So, I have a phpnuke set up that is REALLY rough right now. I’ll be working on it in the near future to get it looking pretty and live as my main page hopefully sometime soon. I just don’t know what I want to do with it right now so it’s kinda sitting there idle. If you want to watch the progress click HERE.
I also set up a forum so that if you have any comments about what I’ve been posting and whatnot, you have a place to do it HERE I told you I was bored!! 😉
A tear shed can say more than a hundred words spoken.
Ben was not going to come down this weekend but after this conversation he surprised me and showed up at 1:30am this morning:
[21:13] Antigone: Hi
[21:13] MPower: hi (blush)
[21:14] Antigone: How ya doin?
[21:14] MPower: I got a little sun burned toady
[21:14] MPower: today
[21:14] Antigone: Did you have the top down?
[21:14] MPower: yeah
[21:14] MPower: ..and..missing you
[21:14] Antigone: Sounds nice…
[21:14] Antigone: I miss you too…
[21:15] MPower: I almost got in the car after we ate and drove down I missed you so much
[21:16] Antigone: I miss you too, Ben… a lot.
It was really nice to have him here today. As I speak he is laying on the couch and Cassidy is laying with him giving him grooming tips. I had resigned myself to the fact that I was not going to get to see him this weekend so him showing up was a great surprise. I was dreading having to spend Easter alone but I understand the fact that it’s getting hard financially to keep making this trip. As well as the fact that he’s really getting tired of haing to drive 500 miles a week to see me. Hopefully I can get the coolant problem fixed on my car and start making the trip up to see him more often.
Anyway, we just hung out at home all day. Cassidy has eaten candy, played with her Easter Basket stuff (bubbles, stickers, hair things, light up pens…) eaten candy, went to the grocery store with me, ate some candy… Did I mention that she ate some candy? I hope she gets to bed before 11! heh
HAPPY EASTER ALL! 🙂
When somebody you are close to loses somebody that was important to them, you are forced to confront the fragility of life.
I realized something not long ago. It seems as if the most spiritual people are taken from the Earth first.
My grandma believed with all her heart that there was a wonderful life waiting for her on the other side and she died rather young. HER belief helped me get though that.
The same thing happened when Ada died. She was also one of the most spiritually grounded people I know. Days before she died she told me, ‘Don’t be sad for me, Anna. I’m in pain, I want to go, I’m ready. I’m going to the place where there is no pain, there is no strife, there is only love.’ While her death was hard, like my grandma, she believed that she was truely going to a better place. That belief helped me once again.
Kynan lost is grandma today. Cassidy and I will say a prayer tonight for Kynan, Julie, Trey, and the rest of Kynan’s family.
Stress is really not good for you. At all.
I need to get more sleep at night. By about 3:00p.m. I am so tired I can hardly stand it. The problem is that if I lay on the couch at night, I just DON’T fall asleep. I try and try and it does not come till the wee hours of the morning. 2-3ish… sometimes later. Then I wake up at 5 and just can’t go back to sleep. *sigh*
MY tummy has also been WAY upset for a week now. It sucked because it started last weekend. Ben was here and I was pretty much crappy company for two days because I just felt horrid. I had to stay home Tuesday because I woke up and immediately started to throw up. I might have had the flu bug that my mom was talking about but I know that last weekend and today, it was not the bug. The stress is literally making me physically ill.
I have to figure out some way to make myself better agian. Someway to stop the physical effects this stress is having on me… Any suggestions are welcome.
New template. If you know me you know of my love for the daisy. If not just ask to see my tatoo sometime. 😉
Anyway, I’ll get some kind of a welcome page up in the next week or so. I’ve been really busy and sick lately so I’m doing the best I can. 🙂
Well, I pick up the divorce papers tomorrow so that Troy can be served. In California your divorce is final exactly six months after a spouse is served. So in six months, I’ll be Anna Reid again. *huge sigh of relief*
We are doing a website for ABPO (Association of Bakersfield Police Officers) so we have a few cops that come in here on a pretty regular basis to discuss the site or just to stop and BS for awhile.
It’s funny, I used to be scared of cops. Like I know that they are here to ‘serve an protect’ but the only time I ever had a dealing with them was when I was in some kind of touble so I always saw them as these big menacing creatures. That opinion has changed since I’ve gotten to know the cops that have been coming in here.
I talked to one today who told me that 50 is the retirement age and that most (70ish %) only live for 8 years or less after they retire. Most of them have heart problems due to having such a high stress level job and eating on the go and sleeping at odd hours because of crazy work times. In his case, he worked the 9PM to 7AM shift for 10 years and he said that he can not sleep at night now. His body got too used to that schedual and now 9 years later he still has problems with it.
I guess listening to a cop talk about his family life and how hard the job really is and what he does to relax has made them a little more human to me.