It’s been a hell of a month.
I was in an accident. My car was totaled. I’m sad about it but Ben and I had already been throwing around the idea of a more fuel efficient car since I drive 100 miles round trip to get to work every day. We are trying to take the payout for the car, then money we can make selling some of the aftermarkets parts off if it to pay for a used Prius or comparable car.
Ben had surgery on his spine to fix a protrusion the size of a silver dollar. The good news is that the numbness and constant severe pain he was feeling in his leg has gone, the bad news is that recovery from the surgery was not nearly as easy as they made it sound! He’s about a week and a half out from surgery and is slowly getting better every day. He’s even been able to spend a little bit of time at the dog park the last few days.
Oh, and also, we are like totally broke. Well, that’s not completel true but for the first time in a long, long, long time I am REALLY worried about money. And it sucks. I look at everything around the house and wonder what I could sell it for. And the stress is finally starting to break me down. I’m so much more lucky than a lot of people in that Ben and I have a support system, like my amazing Dad and step-mom, but we both REALLY want to NOT have to ask for help. I mean, if it comes to that we are both willing to do it, it’s not so much a pride thing, it’s more of… we REALLY just want to be able to do this. To prove to OURSELVES that we are fighters and willing to do whatever it takes to fix things.
So, I dunno, that’s where I am right now. I know there are a lot of people out there worse of than we are so I feel like an ass complaining about stuff like this but… this is where I am. I don’t know what the future holds for us right now but I know that we are going to face it together and fight it as a team. I’ve heard that money problems like this often are hard on relationships but it’s been the opposite for us. We’ve both realized that no matter how broke we are, a hug, or one of us grabbing the other’s hand while watching the dogs play somehow feels more powerful. We are one and we are going to do this together and this hug, it’s free, and it feels good.