OMGHI! I’m like, alive and stuff. Barely. Silly girls. πŸ˜‰

Ummm, I haven’t really blogged because I’m just… ummm… I’m going through stuff that I’m not really sure how to express yet. I’m a thinker. I think everything to death, dig it back up, resuscitate it, then think it back down again.

Rinse. Repeat.

After many months of struggling physically with out of control symptoms Ben finally kicked me in the ass and I made an appointment to get to the gynecologist on Monday. I was given a blood test and on Tuesday the doctor called to confirm what we were already 98% sure of: I have PCOS.

I’m pretty much a text book case and when I first mentioned it to Ben and he read about it he was like, OMG! This is SO YOU! And it is. And the thing is, I see this as both a blessing and a curse.

Blessing: Relief. Like, now. The symptoms are treatable and I’ve been given a different kind of birth control to take and the doctor is sure that I’ll feel better within the next few weeks. This is good. For me and Ben and anybody else that has to deal with me on a daily basis because when you are that hurting PHYSICALLY, it doesn’t take long to start effecting you MENTALLY as well. It was hard on me and it was hard on Ben to have to deal with me and now, that can change. And that is good.

Curse: I am worried about infertility. In very simple layman’s terms, I ovulate about four times a year. I have a period that often. So while most women have twelve chances a year to get pregnant, I have four.

We aren’t planning on having kids tomorrow. Or even trying anytime soon. But I do want kids. Badly. And I always just assumed that since when I was 19 I got pregnant while ON THE PILL, I’d have no problem in the future. Working where I do and seeing how much women have to go through and how REALLY REALLY EXPENSIVE it is for any kind of infertility treatment… it’s just been a lot of thinking.

But for now I really need to focus on the fact that SOON all of these ridiculous symptoms that I’ve been going through for months and months are going to subside and I’ll be back to normal. Well, as normal as I can be. Which lets face it, ain’t normal at all. Even on a good day. But I think now the rate at which Ben shoves his foot up my ass to remind me how NOT normal I am will decrease. Maybe. πŸ˜€

SO THERE! I’m alive AND I’ve blogged AND I have another half written about the autocross and I’ll try not to take over a week to post again. SO THERE!


7 thoughts on “OMGHI

  1. For me and Ben and anybody else that has to deal with me on a daily basis because when you are that hurting PHYSICALLY, it doesnÒ€ℒt take long to start effecting you MENTALLY as well.

    That statement made me want to cry. I’ve never heard it put so eloquently. I tend to say things like I’m in pain and I’m a bitch deal with it you’ll never know how it feels.

    You could have said something to me, hello? All I know is that when I was suffering at my worst it was not like being alive. I didn’t even have periods I had one week breaks, but I let this go for years because it was just normal to me and when it got bad it got bad quick. I found a doctor who could treat it, I have had a regular period since 2004 with metformin. Being on that and bc was the best I ever felt.

    Everyone says if you take the metformin and you are on it for I think 9 months the symptoms start to reverse themselves. Not to say you can ever go off it. My friend was on bc only metformin makes her sick, she went off it because of the risk of blood clots, got pregnant a month later and had to stop a Chinese adoption. I’ve seen this happen so many times Anna that I don’t think you have anything to worry about.

    You have Cassidy so you know you can get pregnant. Trust me they will make you ovulate with a pill if that’s what it takes. Of course you’ll think you are going through menopause but the baby is worth it, right? It will be fine. And in the meantime if you want to be a cranky bitch go ahead and take it out on the internet, that’s what I do.

  2. Thanks Ranee. πŸ™‚ I honestly just wasn’t ready to talk about it yet. It was kind of shocking. Like, HELLO! I’ve been having these symptoms for YEARS and you are JUST NOW figuring this out?! And I had no idea it was so closely linked to things like insulin level. I was already getting back to the gym and am going to try and drop some weight to help things along some.

    For now, since we are in the “first steps” stage I’m trying a new birth control and giving it a few months to see how that goes. I know everybody has different reactions to BC when they first start taking it and mine is: Holy shit sick. I basically feel like I have morning sickness and Wednesday night was NOT FUN for me. Not fun at all. In a few month if I’m still having problems she said we can try some alternative medications but I’m really hoping it doesn’t come to that.

    And thanks for the story about your friend. I’ve been doing more reading and hopefully since I’ve been able to conceive before it will be something as simple as taking a pill to force the eggs into action. πŸ™‚

  3. I was going to call you on this phrase:)

    “but for now I really need to focus on the fact that soon all of these ridiculous symptoms that IÒ€ℒve been going through for months and months are going to subside and IÒ€ℒll be back to normal.”

    …uh, Months? I love you honey… but this has been going on for far longer than months πŸ™‚

  4. Well, I said months AND months. So really, it’s been months times two. But I officially ammend that statement to say:

    “a really damn long time, too long in fact,”

    And I love you, too. πŸ™‚

  5. 1/10 women, eh? well, since I only know like 5, I guess you have 2 of us covered!!

    That made sense when I thought about it.

    Anyway, I wish you luck… what kind of BC did they prescribe you? I remember an eternity ago when you were talking about being RX’d Seasonale. I can’t take a daily bc, I learned that when i really messed myself horomonely…the nuvaring never got me on track but the patch for a year did.. now I’m back on the nuvaring and I loves it… I can even easily manipulate when my “periods” happen — if i want them to (extended use) so once your female parts are back on track and you want to know about it, let me know πŸ˜‰

  6. I’m back on Ortho Tri Cyclin Lo. I asked about other options. IUD, ring, etc. The doctor said that until they can get all the symptoms under control they want to stick with something they know will help.

    This month was SO MUCH better. The PMS symptoms came exactly when they were supposed to, lasted as long as they were supposed to… everything seemed back on track. So I have my fingers crossed that it will continue this way.

    Maybe later on down the line I’ll look into the ring but I’ve never really had a problem remembering to take the pill.

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