I’m not a failure!!!


Today I spent 2 hours in the fabric shop thumbing through pattern books and digging up all the Easy Sew patterns I could find. We walked out with a purse pattern that looked pretty easy and I figured would be a good first project. When I got home I opened up the directions and looked at the pattern and was lost in about .025 seconds.

I let Cassidy pick out the fabric and it was quickly decided that whatever product resulted from said fabric it would be hers because, well… LOOK AT THE FABRIC!

Instead of tackling the purse right away I decided to check out all the different stitches the machine could do and at the same time practiced sewing as straight a line as possible. Some were great. Some looked like maybe Cassidy had done them… after a shot or two. HA!

I decided to look at the purse pattern again and the directions seemed REALLY hard for me to follow. So after I had already cut out all the fabric I decided to take a few remnants and try the pattern in a smaller version first to make sure that the general idea would work. The end result is what you see on the right.

I think it turned out okay! Cassidy quickly proclaimed it a new sleeping bag for her doll and Ben thought it was a good job. So my first project WASN’T a failure. YAY!


1) Be able to hold downward facing dog for at least half the time my 55 year old guru can. While breathing. And not passing out.

2) Conquer laundry.

3) Spend more IRL time with online friends. There is no reason for people who laugh so much together to not be together more often… without keyboards involved.

4) Remind Ben at least once a week how much he is appreciated, loved and admired he is. For driving through San Jose traffic EVERY day just so we can have this home. For loving Cassidy like she is his own daughter. And for reminding me every day how wonderful it can feel to be loved by a man who is so passionate about life.

5) Learn to appreciate my co-workers better qualities.

6) Talk to my dad more. Again, without keyboards involved.

7) Get Cassidy into a class of her choice. Ballet, gymnastics, taekwondo, etc.

8) Go on a REAL vacation. The kind where only the adults go. And involve a plane trip. And planning. And hopefully a beach in Hawaii and romantic dinners at sunset.

9) Sew an outfit for Cassidy.

10) Realize that not achieving a resolution is not an absolute failure. Effort is half the battle. And should be commended.