So I’ve been off the Zoloft for about a month now. I’ve decided that rather than getting more depression medicine from a general prac. doctor I’m going to start seeing a new Psychiatrist. I know that if I don’t get back on meds soon that what I was able to build up in my realtionship with Ben during what I call my ‘happy drug sane time’ it’s going to crumble back down.
I’m just not.. I don’t want to say ‘normal’ but hell, let’s be honest here! I don’t feel like me when I’m not on them. I have these moments where I can think to myself, ‘WTF are you thinking you crazy ass woman.’ But that doesn’t stop the thought. They are there. There a connection between thought/feelings/actions that normal people have that us crazies just don’t get.
On top of that I know there are things in my past that I haven’t dealt with or have skewed my outlook on life today. And I need to fix those things. I want to fix those things.
So yeah, the ‘as normal as drugs can make her happy Anna’ should be back soon. 😉