I think I might have had a panic attack today.

I was sitting at my comouter looking though jobs and submitting resume’s and all of the sudden I had this uneasy feeling like I needed to get up and DO something. I paced from bedroom to kistchen to living room and back about three times jsut looking around. All of the sudden I started to feel like I could not breathe. Like there was a tight band around my chest that was being tightened so I could not catch my breath. Then my hands started to tingle and I could feel my heart like, missing beats. Right as my heart started not beating right I realized that I NEEDED to get out of the house. Ben keeps asking me to explain that feeling but I can’t. I just KNEW that I HAD to get out of the house RIGHT AWAY. I grabbed my keys and got my sandals on on the way out. My first thought was, ‘Get in the car and drive to nVidia.’ But as I closed the door I realized I didn’t have my garage door opener or my cell phone and there was NO WAY I was going back in the house to get them. The thought of opening that door and going INSIDE the six feet to the bar to grab the opener literally made me feel like I wanted to VOMIT. I could NOT go back in the house.

So I went for a walk. I walked around our ‘block’ which is about a 1/2 mile walk. When I got home the panicy feeling was much better. Not gone, but something I was able to think past. I just could not sit still. I cleaned the kitchen, our bathroom, did a few loads of laundry, kept Cassidy busy cleaning.

Ben came home early (I think because he was worried about me) and told me that if I could not sit still for 10 minutes and REALX he was going to make me go to the doctor RIGHT THEN. So I sat down and posted those Open House pictures that I’d been meaning to post for two days.

The feeling finally started to go completely away as we sat down to eat dinner at Buca di Beppo’s. I’ve never ever had a panic attack before, and to be quite honest, I’m not even sure that’s what happened today. I have no idea why I would have a panic attack while sitting in front of the computer doing mindless stuff. I just know that I don’t EVER want to feel that way again.

4 thoughts on “Panic

  1. You might call your doctor that prescribed you Zoloft. Although Zoloft also helps those with anxiety, you may want to see if it can also cause anxiety. I tried doing a brief search and found this article.

    “Zoloft can cause excessive stimulation in many people, and you sound like you are one of them. When that happens, you have to lower the dose or try another medication.”

    Hope that helps… I’ve had two people in my life with panic disorder and it is no fun.

  2. Yeah, I’m going to see a new psychologist since I really didn’t like the other one I was going to.

    Hopefully they can tell me what’s going on and what I can take to prevent it in the future. That feeling is HORIBLE.

  3. They’re coming to take me awaaaaaaaaaay HAHA they’re comeing to take me AWAY! To the funny farm were life is beautiful all day long.. HE HE HO HO HA HA WEWE!…. 😉

  4. Ditto what Eu said! I know personally that feeling is HORRIBLE!! Since your doing so well on the Zoloft I would’nt be quick to change it. The other meds out there can be even worse and make you tired beyond words:( I don’t know what milligram they have you one but see if they can decrease it. Hope your feeling better!!

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