Month: May 2005

We have tickets for a 12:10AM showing. I am so excited it’s slighty embarrassing. Well, more than slightly… really. Of course the girls here at work didn’t even KNOW it was coming out today. *shakes head*

Anyway, after work I’m gonna swing by Hot Topic and pick up a tshirt to wear. I have a feeling if one of us doens’t have SOMETHING on we’re likely to get jumped by a battalion of storm troopers. There better be people there in full garb or I will be really disappointed.

And there will be pictures for sure! All that geekness in one place HAS to be captured and shared!

An email thread from yesterday between Ben and I:

I forgot that the Survivor Season Finale was last night. I know I set the box to record the Thrusday Night Programs but I hope I set it to include all “new showings”. *crosses finger*

I didn’t realize it till I opened up MSNBC and in huge letters across the top of the page is “SURVIVOR WINNER IS …* WHAAAAAAAAA!

Fortunately, I checked this morning, and the world is indeed still spinnning! Yay!

Why do you mock me you heartless fool?!?!

you’re just so mockable you blond-haired nerf-herder

NERF-HERDER!? You call the person who helped you SINGLE HANDIDLY take down an arch villan a NERF-HERDER.

Well, I never.

You…. WEINER!!

I’m sorry, The Judges have spoken…

That was a starwars quote, the correct response would have been to quote something starwars back to me, I’ll need another response, this one doesn’t qualify.

I have in fact conferred with the judges and we have come to the agreement that you can not in fact use ONE WORD from a Star Wars “quote” and then call your answer a “quote” when the entire quote was not quoted correctly.

The correct quote would have been: “Why, you stuck up, half-witted, scruffy looking nerf-herder!”

Anna – 1
Ben – 0

Still, while the judges convey heart-felt sympathy for your weak and utterly baseless claims of inappropriate Starwars quoting, they still find you in contempt of Starwars Lore. There can be no escape from this contempt.

As a duly designated representative of the new republic, I order you to cease any and all inappropriate Starwars quoting activity and return forthwith to your place of origin or to the nearest convenient parallel dimension.

Oh, and

Anna -1
Ben +1

I’ll have you know that as an official member of the followers of the Royal Court of Alderaan (as witnessed by all those who were privy to the aquiring and wearing by ME of the official robes and hair-do) you will surley suffer punishment for your blatant disrespect of the House of Organa.

I have oficially summoned the Princess herself to order a swift and not so comfortable punishment. Perhaps by encasing in carbonite until such a time that the Royal Family feels you are able to properly address those in positions above yours.

I have you now!

I started at the big S last year on July 12th. It hasn’t even been a year yet! Sheesh.

I started out doing plain old secretarial stuff. It sucked and I knew that I could do twice as well as the girls who were working above me. All of them were doing SO MANY EXTRA steps for evey task they had.

Now, less than a year later when my boss leaves town for a few days I’m in charge of 80% of the tasks he normally does (the tasks he does for OUR department, he has a few) and 100% of the ones that are mandatory, time sensative and important. Kinda feels good that I’ve been there less than a year and I see so many of my suggestions being used by everybody. And knowing that by speaking up I’ve seen new processes in place that are saving all of us LOADS of time.

I’m so totally not a slacker! 😛

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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I am an atheist. I’ve found for a long time that being a non-believer is about as bad as being a child killer. When you tell somebody that you don’t believe there is a higher being out there, you automatically become a bad person.

I believe in science. Prove it to me. Show me the proof that “it” exists. I want facts. Timelines based on carbon dating, actual written documents (not copies of copies of copies of some scrolls that nobody has every really seen), etc.

I was recently introduced to the Invisible Pink Unicorn by Marie. Marie rocks.

Taken directly from their site:

The “believers” famous sayings about faith in the invisible pink unicorn is that, like other religions, it is founded in science and faith. Science – that states that she must be invisible, since we cannot see her. Faith – because we know in our heart that the invisible pink unicorn exists.

I have emailed Ben’s dad and my dad and Cherie to find some good books to start learning more about Buddhism. It’s more a belief system than faith that an all mighty (and very vengeful) God is out there watching us somewhere.

I believe in karma. From Wikipedia

Buddhism teaches followers to perform good and wholesome actions, to avoid bad and harmful actions, and to purify and train the mind. The aim of these practices is to awaken the practitioner to the realization of true reality and the achievement of Nirvana.

Buddhist morality is underpinned by the principles of harmlessness and moderation. Mental training focuses on moral discipline (sila), meditative concentration (samadhi), and wisdom (prajñā).

Religious people don’t sin for fear of punishment from God. I do nice things because it’s nice to be nice. And there is no fear based motivation to do the “right thing”. So really, isn’t it more meaningful when I do something nice? Rather than the Christian that only does if for fear of going to Hell? (I’m am certainly not saying that ALL Christians do this.) And is it really okay to tell somebody after they’ve raped and killed a child, “Oh it’s okay, ask for forgiveness and live an eternal life of peace and happiness because you are forgiven!!”

I don’t know. Marie is an anthiest too. I really love Marie. It’s so good to be able to tell somebody that you don’t believe and not have them look like you aren’t worth associating with.

And she goes shopping with me! 😀

It’s Friday the 13th. Every Friday the 13th since the one in June 1997 has been bad for me. On that one I found out Ada had cancer. There were THREE in 1998. On the first, I found out I was pregnant. On the second I had to put my 20 year old cat to sleep. On the third one I was convinced to get married.

Anyway, you get the general idea. Today I tried everything in my power to pretend the day did not exist. I even dated all my work documents 5/14/2005. It seems to have worked so far. But the day is not over…

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1. Android:: Data
2. Revenge:: Karma. Much less messy and much more powerful.
3. Knight:: Round Table
4. Stranded:: Out of gas.
5. Weakness:: Chocolate
6. Greed:: $$$
7. Walter:: High waters
8. Dense:: Protein bars
9. Sheep:: Cotton (Yes, I know. Cotton grows on a plant. It’s what I thought, okay?)
10. Propane:: BBQ

BTW – I totally intend to work on the 100 things list a few posts down. And fix the comment pop-up. And finish the last very simple code changes needed to the guestbook page. And update the colophon with the new changes.

Someday.

Cassidy and Alexis ran away today. Okay, so they didn’t run away. They decided to walk to Sophia’s house. TWO BLOCKS AWAY WITHOUT TELLING ANYBODY.

They had been running in and out of the back yard while Marie and I talked and talked and talked. We just have SO much to talk about! At one point when they ran through Cassidy says as she’s running by, “We aren’t going to Sophia’s!!” (Thank GOD she was foolish enough to say that or we’d not have known where to even BEGIN To look.) To which I responded something along the lines of, “Yeah because then you’d be in more trouble then you ever want to deal with.”

So, after awhile I decided that I needed to get home and we got up and started calling the girls in the house. Only there were no girls. At first it was no big deal. They hide from us all the time when it’s time to go. We casually chatted while we hunted for them.

After about five minutes it became pretty clear that they were not there… Not in the back yard where they had been told TWICE not to leave, not in the house, not in the front yard. We triple checked every spot and area. We both started to get pretty panicked when we realized.. they were just not there.

Marie hopped in her car and drove to Sophia’s. I stayed behind and kept looking. At this point we don’t actually know they are out of the yard. While Marie is over there I notice the guy across the street is out washing his cars so I go over to ask if he’s seen them. Yes, he saw them earlier out in the driveway.

This is where my heart hit the ground. Marie called. They weren’t at Sophia’s. So Sophia’s mom got in her car and searched the neighborhood one way while Marie went the other. As I watched Marie drive back by the house again looking I just about lost it. My heart started to beat so fast I couldn’t take a breath and in 5 seconds every news story I had heard about a sad ending to a missing child story ran through my head. I tried to call Ben but he was outside and the phone was inside. Panic mode is in full scale overload at this point.

I picked up the phone to call 911 when it started ringing. It was Marie. Sophia’s mom found the girls. A block PAST the turn to her house. She had them in the car and was on the way back to Marie’s. When I saw them I wanted to grab her and hold on and cry… and BEAT HER ASS at the same time.

That feeling lasted till I got home and talked to Ben about it and he could calm me down. Marie and I decided that every day after school they will sit separately and no playing, no talking, no listening to music, no TV… only homework and reading.

I spanked Cassidy for the first time in a LONG time. Then I sat down and had a long, very graphic talk, about just what could have happened to her. Kidnapping, death, never seeing her family again, bad men who hunt little girls. I usually try not to be as graphic or as blunt with her but I really needed her to understand just what could have happened to her. When I started talking about all this her face dropped, she got silent and started sobbing. It had finally dawned on her the severity of the situation. At just how bad this situation could have ended.

At home she’s grounded from EVERYTHING but books for a week. I even made her eat her dinner in her room. I told her that starting tomorrow she can eat with us but tonight she needs to really think about this.

*deep breath* I’m still so on edge about this that my stomach hurts. I’ve never felt anything so horrific in my life. There really just are no words to explain what I felt. What I was thinking. The torture. I’ve tried to type it, I’ve tried to explain it to Ben. There are just no words.

Right before she went to bed I told her, “I love you very much. And I was so scared for you today that it made me want to throw up. I was so scared that you were hurt or bleeding or lost or scared and it made mommy just… sick. I don’t want to be mad at you but I want you to understand how very much in trouble you are and how you can NEVER do this again.” She gave me a big hug and started sobbing again and while she had her arms around me said, “I won’t mommy, I promise.”

Kristen kinda challenged people to come up with 100 things about themselves that are unique, different, random. You get the idea. Cool, let’s go.

BTW – This list is being started on lunchtime before I have to attend a 1.5 hour meeting in which I hope not to fall asleep. And snore. So if it’s not finished, I’ll get to it after work or tonight or tomorrow or never.

1) I have a very sort temper. I have worked very hard at learning to control it for the last three years. It’s taken counseling and a very very very patient boyfriend that understands me. (And isn’t afraid to tell me to shut up when I’m being overly… stupid?)

HA! Meeting time already! More later.

Everybody go visit aflux’s wonderful hostee, Kristen. She’s a younger, funnier version of me… only she can actually write well and dosen’t have quite as foul a mouth. heh